I am surrounded by some of the strongest females I know. They are the world to me and they are my go-to's for everything. They are my shoulder to cry on, objective thinkers when I'm out of control, listeners when i need to talk, and hugs all around.
BUT (yes, the infamous BUT) in comparison to men, the woman in my life, by far, outnumber them. i truly have no strong foundation of a male to stand on. if anyone is reading this, do NOT disillusion yourself into thinking "oh she's just whining about the fact that she doesn't have a significant other" because you would be sickly wrong. it's the fact that i don't have a strong adult male influence to lean on, to compare someone to, to depend on, to be here with me.
i'm unbalanced. my chi is not centered. the female presence greatly outweighs the male presence in my life and i am just now, physically, realizing this. i mean sure, i've always known this, but my body is now physically comprehending this sad truth.
i'm tired.
BUT (yes, the infamous BUT) in comparison to men, the woman in my life, by far, outnumber them. i truly have no strong foundation of a male to stand on. if anyone is reading this, do NOT disillusion yourself into thinking "oh she's just whining about the fact that she doesn't have a significant other" because you would be sickly wrong. it's the fact that i don't have a strong adult male influence to lean on, to compare someone to, to depend on, to be here with me.
i'm unbalanced. my chi is not centered. the female presence greatly outweighs the male presence in my life and i am just now, physically, realizing this. i mean sure, i've always known this, but my body is now physically comprehending this sad truth.
i'm tired.
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