Freedom! --for the most part

You know how there's always something that you picture yourself telling the person that makes you feel the most sad/angry/upset/broken hearted/etc..? It's the kind of thing in an alternate universe, or perfect world, where you would have no fear of saying to them. You'd speak your piece to them, verbally slapping them in the face (which feels fantastic), and then you walk away.
In most of the movies i've watched there is that pivotal moment where the leading role speaks up and says enough. But it's always quick, edited, and shortened, for timing purposes and keeping the movie fast paced so as to not lose the attention that audiences seem to lack the span for nowadays. Then usually after that glorious moment, there is a happy ending. The end.

----WAKE UP!----

(rule)

THIS IS REAL LIFE. Unscripted. Not directed. No 8 minute monologues. No rehearsal. No retakes.

It's not as easy as it seems. Of course it looks epic in your head, but REALLY think about it: The opposition isn't going down without a fight, so they are going to have something to argue back with you. They may be listening but they are not going to hear you.
.......and by the way, you only get one shot at saying the right thing (sorry!). Unfortunately, this is something that you are going to replay in your head as you lay in bed at night - while undergoing reoccurring flashbacks of the incident- wondering why it didn't go the way you pictured it.
BUT (you're welcome)*

----UNLESS----
(exception)

You have an out-of-body experience where you pretty much shock yourself with the words that are shooting out of your mouth like those intense machine guns you see in all those epic war movies that make you wish you were a part of the action. You end up saying the things you cry to your friends about. You say the things that you swore on your own life you would never EVER tell that person. Things that make you feel like you're signing your own death warrant, complete with a grand bonus of embarrassment.
BUT (yeah)*



*(good news!)Speaking up for yourself to your opposition/fear gets easier with practice, i promise. It's seriously not hard at all. Start with small things like something a friend said that bothered you. Then work your way up to the big issues that involve stuff like long-term resentment.

Once you conquer these things, you'll want to run/skip/sprint/prance/gallop (clothing optional) through fields of tall grass because you feel so liberated. Speaking up may not solve the issues at hand, but you will sleep better at night knowing you said what you've been dying to say. You will be able to rest your head on your pillow, feeling free of your own thoughts that kept you up until those early hours of the morning
:)

haha

i don't know how to delete posts.
this was blank, but now i'm filling it with words so there won't be this awkward post that doesn't say anything.

Marchingness

It's march.

My Perfect Umbrella

Today I found my perfect umbrella!

I found it a few days ago when venturing around an umbrella section in a store. Of course I'm freaking out that I found only two clear plastic bubble masterpieces left among the rest of the normal umbrellas. I've been waiting to find one forEVER.

The first time I saw this clear bubble umbrella was in high school. The gal that had it said she ordered it online. I'm sketched out at ordering things online, so I gave up on my little dream to have the perfect clear plastic bubble umbrella---UNTIL NOW!

So once I deposit my check, I am driving with determination to my location and getting my beautiful clear plastic bubble umbrella! AH!

My Laws of Life

I'm starting up a list of rules that I have learned throughout my life. These aren't your average rules of living, but I'm not an average person. Once the list feels complete to me, I'll make more blogs as to why these rules are even existing.

MY LAWS OF LIFE:

1. don't eat red Jelly Belly jelly beans.

2. never ever never ever EVER never wear spaghetti strap shirts in public.

3. roll up your windows before you leave your car at night.

4. lock your car door upon entering vehicle.

5. don't use your shoes that are on your feet to distract a rabid dog.

6. beware the fast talkers.

7. check the expiration date on the milk before you drink it.

8. eat a couple bits of cereal before you pour your milk.

9. exhale through your mouth when jogging outside.

10. do NOT go on facebook if you can't sleep after one in the morning.

11. beware the smooth talkers (these are different than fast talkers).

12. check your refrigerator for milk before having a bowl of cereal.

13. don't drink hot chocolate with oriental food.

14. don't follow the instructions in how much salt to put into cookies.

15. leave a sock in each shoe before you leave your shoes by the designated shoe area.

16. it's never too early for chocolate

17. wear shoes in kitchens

18. don't apply baking soda a second time

19. online dating.... just don't try it, okay?

20. don't be ashamed (what? a serious law? crazy, i know)

The Day is Over!

BEST DATES EVER = eden and kristin.

We got all dolled up and walked around oceanside in heals. Not our best idea, but as some saying goes, "beauty is pain." I'LL SURE SAY! It was good to feel cute for a night even though I felt scandalous with what i was wearing, but i have it on good authority that i didn't look like a scanty slut. We counted 5 different incidents of getting hit on this evening. kristin was the spiciest looking one for sure ;) seeing as the guys could NOT keep their eyes off her!

There's a lot I could complain about with all this valentine's day nonsense, but i'm sure it's not something that hasn't been heard before. And I simply just don't feel like explaining! I'd rather get enough sleep for work then type a novel as to why Vday is a ridiculous holiday emphasising relationships that most people don't have.

Question & Date

What defines a good blog? I ran across a random person's blog and there were people commenting on it saying how good it was. What makes a blog good?

The 14th is coming up and I haven't talked to anyone who is excited about this "loving" holiday. Well I don't talk to many people anymore, so I GUESS that could be considered a factor in this situation, but it depends on the reader and how much they know about me.
This is either a really exciting holiday for people, or a really depressing one, or a ridiculous one that people with a good sense of humor like to mock. I'm spending it with someone very special. Two people actually! It's the three of us and we're going on an almost-date. We've got this day planned out, full of epic adventures, and I'm sure it's going to be unforgettable ;)

Perhaps I'll talk about it more later......... *dun dun DUUUUN*